The Truth About Nina: Archive

Apr 1st

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Wow...

It’s been a few months since I’ve been on here… Long story short, ended up back in the hospital for a bit and still haven’t made adjustments to the real world yet. And that guy I went on a date with? We saw each other a few more extra times. I thought things were going pretty well. But then, he blew me off when the semester ended and didnt contact me for the whole...

Apr 1st

Went on a date last night

butterflies >.<

Dec 2nd

I’m tired of people always asking me about my race…just accept that you actually can’t judge me by my cover.

Dec 1st

Started Sleepwalking 2 Nights Ago

Aah, gotta love Ambien. -.-

Dec 1st

Somehow...

I ended up agreeing to go on a date with some guy I met one night when I was drunk…and I barely remember him. Incredibly random. Around midnight last night I get a text from a number I didn’t know. Hey it’s Ell from Nan’s, What’s going on? For about five minutes I was trying to remember if I ever met an Ell in my lifetime. I decided he must be one of the boys I...

Nov 23rd

So I was in the hospital for the last 10 days. So much went on and I’m too tired to write about it right now. But I haven’t felt suicidal in days, and it feels great.

Nov 20th

眠い

Nov 10th

I feel pretty today.

Nov 9th

Someone Does Understand...

Secret: i can’t bring myself to do all the hw i have to do and i’m beginning to see the impact Me: >.< Secret: i don’t like college, i dont like the concept my grades have nothing to do with how much i learn, no one’s grades have anything to do with that or ability Secret: i’m have a lifestyle issue or something cause i do prefer just working, and the...

Nov 9th

おはよう

Nov 7th

おやすみなさい！ Teehee, finally found out how to type in Japanese.

Nov 7th

For the last two weeks, I’ve only been eating about 1 meal a day. I usually just have a small bowl of oatmeal and a rice cake. But the last three days I haven’t had anything to eat. I’m low on money so I’m afraid to eat any bit of food I have left. It’s beginning to show… usually this would be a great thing for me. But I can see that soon I’m going to...

Nov 5th

Nov 4th

u.u

Secret finally decided to check his email after about 3 years. He hit 11,000+ new emails. Crazy. But then he went on to say: Secret: fuck i feel so depressed i’m about to throw up Me:=[ ::hugs:: Secret: This is pretty weird there are some people who i occasionaly attempt to talk to and i never really knew why i always tried to say hi and try to make contact going through these emails...

Nov 4th

Girl, Interrupted

regularpirates: I finally watched it. Did you enjoy it?

Nov 4th

Nov 3rd

Blah

Japanese test in the morning. Nervousssssss.

Nov 3rd

It’s so hard not be violent towards my roommates sometimes. Two new signs: “Don’t put food in garbage.” I should submit that to failblog.com I put up a sign about refilling the toilet paper container when it runs out. They put up a sign “We don’t use this toilet paper.” That required a sign because…? I hate living with stupid people.

Nov 3rd

lalalala You are a great singer. http://www.formspring.com/forms/?711280-wI3KWBg6MY

Nov 2nd

So depressed right now.

Nov 2nd

Dear Secret,

I don’t really know what love is. The only experience I think qualifies as love is my first boyfriend. We lasted a pretty long time together and I never really got over him. Sometimes I will be reminded of him and think “Too bad it ended.” I’ve heard that when you are in love, you can’t stop thinking about the person, you feel crappy when they aren’t around,...

Oct 31st

12348.) i wish she would stop pretending i am her...

(via blogsecret) Ugh I always have this issue with friends. And then they get mad at me for calling them out on it. Sorry that I was the only one willing to say how I felt rather than be a fake bitch.

Oct 30th

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Have you noticed that the commercials that they...

(via sixstepfailure) Lol word! And credit card debt help and Blue Hippo computers.

Oct 30th

Eh, thought I might try this out →

Oct 29th

I love hearing/watching Japanese people say...

hiling: They are just so adorbz. <3 !!!! Agree! XD

Oct 29th

My roommate, Sabby, spent the night with her boyfriend last night. She had no idea that the bathroom rug she provided was going to be thrown away, either by accident or on purpose. She’s pretty upset about it, which I totally understand. I just hope it doesn’t ruin her view of me since I ended up being involved in the throwing away of her property. It started with the toilet. For...

Oct 29th

I just witnessed a Wheel of Fortune fail.

Oct 29th

reblog and add your username after your birthday

throughthelookinglass: complimenteachotherlikecolors: ibelongtome: ifwecouldlove: alwaysmemberneverforget: someonelikeeyou::evocation: January 1: 2: 3: 4: 5: 6: 7: 8: 9: 10: 11: 12: 13: 14: 15: 16: 17:divinitywithin 18: 19: 20: ibelongtome 21: 22:complimenteachotherlikecolors 23: 24:livingreflection 25: 26: 27: 28: 29: 30: 31: February 1: 2: 3: 4: throwyourheartrightin...

Oct 29th

I hate when people who claim to be my friends never return my phone calls. But they will send me a lame facebook comment once a month or an IM, just to say whats up…and then…that’s it. Convo over. It’s not like I harass them with a call or IM everyday. I’m not the overly needy type of person…I just want some proof that these people actually think of me as the...

Oct 28th

borderline-confessions

throughthelookinglass: thanks for the follow. no problem ^_^

Oct 28th

I'm the type of person who is paranoid and worries...

ontheborderline: throughthelookinglass: living-doll: zerofriends: putticketsonme: meysell:rocketstorobots:(via omegalomaniacc) welcome to my life.

Oct 28th

The roommates put up more signs. Really, what’s wrong with just knocking on my door and saying “Hey, can we discuss this this and that?” I rather the one time discussion than the billions of post-its all over the apartment. I had a guest over the other day and she wasn’t excited to meet them after she saw all the signs. That is one of my main concerns about the billions...

Oct 24th

Dear Roommate, Please stop talking to me. I’m in a very bad mood and I really don’t care about how you are going to meet up with your ex-boyfriend’s mother and how it’s nice but oh so weird at the same time. Nor do I care about how dark your hair came out after you dyed it. Or how your hand is incredibly itchy. I’m too busy thinking of reasons to not kill myself....

Oct 22nd

I feel so alone today.

No one understands what I am going through. I always want to kick myself for breaking down and telling them what’s bothering me. What good does it do? They only feel awkward, which brings on the awkward silence, which only proves that I really am alone.

Oct 22nd

Emails Emails Emails...

The Academic Advisor: Hi Nina, I haven’t heard from you in a while are you ok? I’d like to meet with you soon. What days and times do you have available? S. M. says you missed two classes, one of which was a review class (last Friday). You should contact S when you will be absent. Why don’t you email her now. S says you need to be more active in class and work a lot harder...

Oct 22nd

I’m so depressed that I don’t even have the energy to vent on tumblr tonight.

Oct 22nd

Suicidal thoughts keep haunting me this week. Hopefully, tonight’s class will help distract me.

Oct 21st

I kinda want to be a Suicide Girl.

Oct 20th

I love him

Secret: welcome back
Me: hello hello!
Me: wats the Secret doing!
Me: ?
Secret: trying to start some hw
Secret: u?
Secret: i hope you're not drinking tonight
Me: i wish i was my friend!
Me: and im just
Me: idk
Me: sorta drawing
Secret: balloons is the future, baby
Secret: whatever floats your toast
Me: i might drink tomorrow
Me: Nan needed today off
Me: cuz she went out after i left
Secret: who is Nan?
Me: the person who gets me drunk
Secret: like, more descriptions
Me: she's hot roommate's best friend
Me: goes to school w/ us
Secret: can i talk to hot roomate?
Me: no -.-
Secret: can i talk to Nan?
Me: no lol
Me: y would u want to talk to them
Secret: to tell them to stop giving you so much alcohol
Secret: because you're going to die or get raped or murdered
Secret: and it's making me sad
Me: i already told u that doesnt really matter anymore lol
Secret: yeah it does, to me 
Secret: it makes me sad
Secret: does that matter
Me: i dont see y it would make u sad
Secret: i have nothing against getting totally shit-faced
Secret: but it seems like you do it too much.. and you do it when you're talking about pills
Secret: and that sort of shit can kill you
Secret: and it makes me really scared
Me: uve got nothing to wry about
Me: i have like 5 pills left and i wont be able to afford to get more after that
Me: so the pills and alcohol combination is not going to last long
Secret: you're not going to die from an od because you're going broke is supposed to mean i shouldn't worry?
Me: ok how about, im not the type of person to go buy random pills off the street so even if i had money i wouldnt go get them
Secret: you're still broke
Secret: and when you do have money, are you going to buy more?
Secret: your liver will rupture
Secret: shit hurts
Me: id have to get them from a doctor and all that
Secret: and would you
Secret: ?
Me: i dont desire them so much to go through all of that
Me: they just been sitting in my drawer for like two months now
Me: and i spent money on them so i wanted to just use em up
Me: i like em, but im not going to go out of my way to try to score some more
Me: i dont care enough about them to do that
Me: 
Secret: : \
Me: no love for nina?
Secret: just worry
Secret: and love
Secret: but worry worry
Me: dont need to
Me: i be fine

Oct 17th