The Academic Advisor:
Hi Nina,
I haven’t heard from you in a while are you ok? I’d like to meet with you soon. What days and times do you have available? S. M. says you missed two classes, one of which was a review class (last Friday). You should contact S when you will be absent. Why don’t you email her now. S says you need to be more active in class and work a lot harder if you want to pass. I’m not judging you I just want to meet with you and help you.
Take Care,
L
What does it matter, L? I can’t pay for school anyway. I’ll be kicked out very soon.
Mom’s Emails:
Grandma sent her this one:
h, nina has never called me about sally mae ????????
Lying bitch. I’ve called her more times this month than I had in any other year.
My mom’s response to her:
All you can do is call her. But you can call Sallie Mae on your own at 8882725543
Of course, this is all happening during these last two weeks, when everyone decided to not contact me about anything until now.
Grandma writes mom back:
no that is not what we agreed upon or understood as to what the problem was. I have to successfully complete & sign the application on line. Nina was suppossed to do for me like she did for grandma. (my great grandma) Grandma did not even have a computer at home and she completed the whole application as nina did it for her.
Not only are you a liar but you must be fucking brain dead. I told you over and over that you had to fix your account before I could even move on to the next step. What’s so difficult to understand??
So mom wrote:
BUT BUT BUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Grandma (my great grandma again) still had to talk to them directly to verify the info. You have to be honest, forthcoming and accurate with your information.
So I wrote back to my mom:
I’ve told her OVER and OVER that SHE needs call sallie mae and tell THEM that her account is NOT allowing her to sign in to complete the application. I CANNOT do ANYTHING for her because I AM NOT El. Di. I CANNOT CALL SALLIE MAE TO ASK THEM TO FIX HER ACCOUNT BECAUSE I AM NOT HER. I KEEP TELLING HER TO FUCKING ASK THEM TO HELP HER FIX HER ACCOUNT BUT SHE KEEPS ASKING THEM ABOUT EVERYTHING BUT THAT. I CANNOT DO ANYTHING UNTIL SHE GETS HER ACCOUNT FIXED. WHEN SHE GETS IT FIXED, THEN I CAN FINISH THE APPLICATION. BUT THE APPLICATION IS NOT ACCESSIBLE UNTIL SHE CALLS THEM UP AND ASKS WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER ACCOUNT.
I think that was very clear.
So Mom wrote to my grandma and sent it my way:
Nina - I hear you loud and clear!!!!!!!!! I am forwarding this to Mama!
Mama - I don’t understand what’s wrong but you need to do something.
Perhaps you both have to meet.
Before I hear bullshit excuses let me just say:
1) This is the most important thing for you, Nina.
2) To say ” I can’t” or ” I don’t have time” to help my grand daughter is a thing that should NOT be said.
It’s great to know that my grandmother lies and tells me she is doing everything she can for me but is really not doing a thing. All I need her to do is fill out an application for me because I can’t do it for her. Suddenly I no longer deserve her cooperation with this loan because I won’t do her part for her. She makes me fucking sick!
And if I were to meet my grandma, guess who’d actually have to do the traveling! Because no, my grandma won’t drive out here to the city to meet me. She would make me pay a shitload for a fucking train ticket, with money I dont have might i add, and then ride the train for like 4 hours just to sit down with her at a public library computer to fill out an application and fail because she cant even sign into her account because for some reason she just wont ask sallie mae for help with her account. Then i would have to travel another billion hours back, buying a ticket once again I can’t afford and wasting more of my life, when it would take less time for her to just come in her car and see me. i’d even meet her half way, but with grandma, its only her way or no way.
So a few days later, Mom writes again:
Titled: Mama’s (my Grandma) Bad News
Did you speak to mama?
I didn’t speak to Mama but I am pretty sure her bad news has something to do with her not cosigning my loan for me because she is a selfish bitch. I’ve never asked her for anything because I know she is incapable of generosity if she gets nothing out of it. I just hopes she knows that after wasting a whole month of my time with her lies about wanting to help me, she shouldn’t even dare to think she can call herself my grandmother anymore.
Fuck it all. I rather be fucking dead than deal with these people for another day.
